The unspoken - diary 1

Good day bloggers,

Days and months passed , emotions lost and gave up , somehow it couldn't recover and i am back to very the initial stage of my old personality and presentation , The feeling of giving  up as from the pass life brings in forwards to my current life ,been able to speak freely its like a hard thing , words unspoken , emotions within , what more could come ?  Feeling real bad about this . real bad when i faced a person that i could like or fall in love with , things became unnatural for me and probably making others uncomfortable too.

Emotions within

Good evening, friends family ,bloggers and viewers or passerby ,life's been hard for few months after a total cut off and a let go from the past ,it have been up and down for me when where friends its the most important people i have. currently  after so long where my life just went through a hoo-ha again nor short relationship or is it counted still a relationship where i  just go on with it ,this few months back leaving past and thinking of the future,  thinking of the decision to be made between a significant whats life could be .Certainly where there its up and down coming which i fore see its going happen which i always tell my self to be strong and not go through another emotional stage again ,well it came up again .

Thoughts away

Evening readers bloggers, friends ,and family. life's its just overwhelming for me this year.Well what's done been done, whats overcome its overcome,what chances took it's been done. At last its knowledge I met,experiences I get, time I passed .

Its time for me to do my own things, do what I want in my life to have a happening nor happy life,  what could make me happy it's still one,meeting someone in my journey .....


            

Thoughts of mind

evening bloggers, viewers,readers,Once in life  day in my life  , that I choose to stand up again after the falls I had a few times,friends still gives us encouragement and support to put you back on the steps ,

And then so ,

Once again I had my fall
Because I did not stand enough tall
Time to change after all
Till its the time to make my call

For now I had to be strong
Staying away from the emotional form
Having a positive mind for long
Hoping there is a chance we get along

there is where i hope for a better life
which  friendships could be more alive
till one day there is a chance to strive
and in life we could have a great drive

efforts  been done and made
responds replied and take
patience its  a long wait
until when could be the date.

Never see to tell thy love , love that never toid can be for the gentle wind doth move silently, invisibility 

Thanks and regards,
ke wei

The end of the started end

Evening blogger viewers bloggers friends and family , simply sharing a song lyrics that could maybe state my feelings  , emotions , situations now . Continuing from my previous post ,after that we did still went out for outing dinner and a small overnight trip , in just few days things were getting tense for us where somehow I could not even communicate with her , the actions as I'm trying to care more and be even better to her brings us further , anyways it's a pass now ,going out from this situation will be like last year , a fade away , past passes by. 

Here the part of lyrics goes which explains me now........

Tired, as usual I'm trying hard to stay awake .
Also thinking of you as usual.

I'm so afraid that when I set my mind at rest and go to sleep, 

that in my dreams, my heartbeat won't listen and will just stop.

Listening, to my breath that is swaying like tides.
The more beautiful, the uneasier I become.
What can I still cherish, if I even find my own pulse too hard to control?

If I become a memory, and quit this life.
Leaving you dazed and crying behind.
My cold body would be unable to hug you.
I'd think of the affectionate you, the one who I'd cause to experience a huge loneliness.
I would hate myself for being so heartless.

If I become a memory, I wouldn't be fortunate in the end.
I wouldn't have a chance to get gray hair, no chance to staggeringly hold your hands nor have a chance to watch the sunset with you.
After a long time there will be a day that you'll recover from your grief.
If someone is able to let him be with you, then I won't blame you.

Happiness, when will it end?
Which moment will be the last?
I want to hold you tightly.
I want to let you know that in my life you're the one that I can't be without most.

If I become a memory, I'd be the most scared of not being able to let go.
Stubbornly hanging around and taking over every single part of your mind.
I'd have to let the one who still loves me behind and having to bear with the pain of losing someone.
This wouldn't be fair, so please do your best and forget about me.

I did what I could to make you happy , anything just to with you ,yes you did treat me well too whatever I done it's still not enough for you. I know that you want to be friends only and friends forever ,well sorry I could not do that because my love towards your it's true .What i for see its a future with you...sadly maybe it could not happen although you are still the only one.

Thanks for your patience 

Your regards ,

Ke wei

The 2015

Good day bloggers ,viewers,friends and family, thanks for coming by my blog , This its my 1st post of year 2015  !!! Happy New year all !! Happy 2015 !! Wishing you all the best in your 2015 year !

Its About time

Is Good day bloggers ,viewers,friends and family, thanks for coming by my blog.
Just writing this where its related to my previous post , well as you see its almost  the end of 2014 , yet the responses it still the same that i expected will be if its continuing to be like this "why do i even want to continue this tired friendship" its better off without going on and off where we could hangout or text. Although we are still continuing to go out without knowing whats status are we in , i'm not sure what are we now unless there i could confess again where it could be a start of the end of this friendship or a better relationship.Well before i got to confess, the answer its already there as "friends forever" came in from a text.

In my previous post i did say i want to continue and pursue her without any reason while waiting some spark to happen at the same time too. but for now until this extend where it's like I am just passing or wasting my time,  i thought its going to be better but now its just like being a friend kinda things ,well nothing much here,still trying to make it better which got s close even more when we went for a day trip again the weekends, will just let it be and just continue my life while waiting the one who really appreciate  the time given towards the person .Sometimes i do really think , why she does still will find me after the 1 year  and repeating the same thing again sigh,well now its  about time again  , its a goodbye just  before confessing and its time .......




A simple sentence left behind ,

Nothing much to say , nothing much to write

time is leaving and its easy  without saying a goodbye 

Appreciate the time and effort  people give you and find time for you

because time and friendship cannot be bought .

Thanks and regards
ke wei
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Rain

Something i thought of while i was walking under the drizzle so this just came through my mind

Walking under the drizzling rain

I won't feel the pain 

Because there it's only vain

Where here there is nothing to blame .

under the drizzle the wind its cool
i'm enjoying the rain like a fool
because i'm naive like a kid in school
and i don't follow the rules .

Raining its the best moments to lie

where because no one could see you cry

and your emotions couldn't be bother.

when your tears flows   with  water

Some say dancing in the rain its the best moments
only if your are with that someone with emotions
to win the heart its your token

only if  you have the devotion.

Best regards ,
ke wei
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